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  Her insides twisted in on themselves. Please, let her be wrong. She wanted Robin as a partner, not Kane. Maybe this had nothing to do with the project. But God, it really felt like it did. The longer she sat there waiting for her turn, the harder her fingers clenched the paper in her lap and the tighter the steel band around her chest constricted. She stared almost blindly as her knuckles turned white, and her chest struggled to relax enough to let air in.

  Oh, God.

  If she had to be partners with a man, let it be with a small one. Not Kane. Please, not the six-foot-four, 240-pound man that looked like he belonged with his mitts wrapped around a jackhammer all day.

  She had nothing against construction workers, but she so didn’t want anything to do with Kane where her problems were concerned. She was looking for so much less of a man.

  And her mind called her on it. Liar. You so want to have something to do with him.

  She had to correct herself. No, I want to be able to do something with him. But I’m not there yet. She slid a sideways glance at his massive thighs encased in tight jeans as he sat relaxed in the chair beside her. And, she repeated, I might never get there.

  Then it was her turn.

  “Tania and Kane.” Jenna walked over to them and tugged a chair forward so she sat in front, making a triangle of their positions. “Sorry for making you wait.”

  It was on the tip of Tania’s tongue to say ‘no problem’, but she couldn’t get the words out. Feeling like a mouse caught in a horrible sense of knowing it was about to get pounced on, she sat, frozen…and waited.

  And knew her fate was as bad as the mouse when Jenna said, “Let’s discuss your project.”

  Tania felt more than saw Kane glance her way, but she heard his comment clear enough. “Are you sure this is a good idea? Maybe Tania would do better with someone else.”

  His smooth-as-chocolate voice sent waves of want through her, but the actual meaning sent rods of steel down her back, making her straighten in outrage.

  “I’ll be fine,” she snapped and widened her gaze as she realized she’d just agreed to work with him. Oh, shit. That damn stubborn temper of hers…

  “Good. I think you’ll do just fine. Besides, your partnership isn’t a spur-of-the-moment decision. I’ve been working on these pairings since you both confirmed you’d be here, and I think you’ll work perfectly together.” She studied the papers in her hand for a moment, as if unconcerned at the reception of the other two.

  Tania knew she had to be perceptive to the change in the air, the tension. But she also had to assume the woman knew what she was about. Except Tania had been to some crazy therapists who should have dealt with their own crap before trying to counsel others.

  She didn’t think Jenna fell into this same category.

  But who could know?

  Hunkering down in the chair, she tried to open her mind to the concept of a team project, actually managing to laugh at herself. It was just for a few days. Like, how hard could this be?

  Then she listened in growing horror to Jenna’s explanation.

  When Jenna fell silent, Tania could only stare at her in shock.

  Thankfully, Kane appeared to have a handle on this and blasted Jenna with her sentiments exactly. “You want us to what?”

  He stood up and stormed around the room. “Are you nuts?”

  Tania couldn’t agree more.

  With his hands out, he said, “Look, I’m here and willing to do the work to deal with my stuff, but you’re putting Tania in danger.”

  She what? Tania straightened. “Excuse me? What kind of danger?” Because she wasn’t up for any; not in any way. She wanted a safe, controlled project that would allow her to open the door to her comfort zone and put her big toe in to test the water; that was it.

  Danger? Hell no. She’d had enough of that when she’d been raped over ten years ago.

  She wasn’t going to be in any kind of danger – ever again.

  * * *

  Kane had sat through enough today. Watching Tania’s tiny body shift away from him from the moment he’d sat down – hell, probably from the moment he walked into the room, he knew she had some big-time man issues. He didn’t get man-hater vibes from her, but a tiny woman like that would be easy prey for the wrong man. Unless she was a black belt in something, she had no protection from a man’s anger. That she was here in therapy, he’d bet his years of experience that she’d been in an abusive relationship. She was a creampuff for any guy over sixteen. For someone like him, hell, no way could he be around her.

  He felt like he’d be slamming a tea cup against the wall if he said anything in a harsh tone.

  She was way too delicate for this class. For him. For this project. The damn shrink had this one wrong.

  There was no way anyone with his anger issues, his hatred of his ex, should be around someone who he could break in half with two fingers.

  As he realized Tania was nodding her head in emphatic agreement, a tiny part of him was sorry for it. In the old days, he’d have loved to have been the knight in shining armor and help her deal with whatever issues she had. He’d seen enough sad cases in his years in law enforcement that he had some idea of what she might have gone through. It could be something completely different…but his instinct said he was close. Damn close.

  The shrink smiled at them both, with that damn compassionate warmth that made him wonder if she lived with sunshine and pussy cats all her life to have given her outlook a rosy tinge. Because that wasn’t the reality as he knew it.

  She had to know that. They all interviewed to come here. Every one of them had spoken to her privately about their issues, and then they’d all attended her lectures at the university alongside their regular classes. While he might not know all of Tania’s issues, he knew that Jenna did know.

  And still she’d paired them together. Wondering what she could possibly be thinking, he slowly sat back down.

  And wondered why?

  Chapter 2

  Tania watched silently and a bit regretfully as Kane blew through his temper and back into calm. Her father used to do that; blow up, cool down, and then refuel for the next blow. Her mother had always loved to get him going. They’d fought like cats and dogs all the time, but it hadn’t weakened their relationship. They’d argued, debated, and made up with the same passion. Because they blew up often, bad feelings and irritations didn’t build up to the point that they caused damage. They shared what they felt all the time – good and bad. It hadn’t been the easiest childhood, but she’d always known where she stood on any issue. Bottom line – they loved each other and her.

  Even after their divorce, she’d never doubted it. They were still friends today.

  Kane looked to be of similar ilk.

  It made him a little easier to understand. Except, in this instance, she wished he’d blow a little harder, a little louder. And get them out of this.

  “It’s only a project,” Jenna was saying in that smooth, what-could-you-possibly-be-worried-about tone of voice.

  And that just made Tania terrified. She’d been through too much therapy to believe that. And from the look of him, Kane hadn’t been through enough. He appeared to be falling for Jenna’s line of bullshit.

  Tania wasn’t so easily swayed. She leaned forward. “Jenna, you know our history. I’m not sure what Kane’s issue is, but you know mine.”

  Jenna smiled warmly at her and waited for her to continue, expectancy on her face for a favorite student about to give the right answer. That should have been enough warning, but just in case Jenna really didn’t get it… “Surely,” Tania added, “I could work with Robin. I’d love that.” And she beamed with relief at the smile on Jenna’s face. This would work. Tania had always managed to get things to work at university and at work. People were accommodating; no one wanted discord.

  And then she saw the look in Jenna’s eyes and realized there was to be no easy exit from this one.

  “Fine. How hard can this be?” Ta
nia glared at Kane, who just raised an eyebrow at her. He flicked something off his thigh, but it was the mocking look that made her ask. “What?”

  “Oh, nothing; just flicking away an irritating mosquito.”

  She shot him a narrow-eyed look before turning her back on him to glare at Jenna. “This is a really bad idea,” she said in a dark tone.

  But Jenna was laughing. “Maybe and maybe not. So let’s go over what you are going to do.”

  And that was when Tania realized she was getting a camera.

  She couldn’t stop the smile that broke free, the relieved laughter that rippled throughout the room. “Oh, my God. You should have said something in the beginning.” She laughed and laughed.

  When she could stop the giggles, only the odd hiccupping laugh still escaping, she realized Jenna had a wry smile on her face. Kane wore a thundercloud.

  “I’m glad this isn’t quite as impossible as you’d first been afraid it was,” Jenna said gently.

  And that, of course, had been the crux of the issue. Settling down and realizing she’d let her fears completely override rational thought here, Tania relaxed.

  She loved photography, and of course, Jenna knew that. They’d discussed it several times. She wasn’t sure why or how, or if the sensation was real or just another mirage she put up in her world to make something doable, but being behind a camera put distance between her and a situation. Gave her a buffer from the uncomfortable, the too-intense insights, and the world at large.

  It gave her a sense of security. Of safety.

  Jenna was seriously bright to have done this. And that relief was something that let Tania sit down and let herself settle inside. She was safe. This wasn’t going to be something that was super scary. Super intimate. In fact, she had to wonder if it would do anything for her at all. But her mind immediately clutched at the straw offered and said she could deal with the other stuff later. Down the road, like in ten years’ time.

  “Okay. I’m really going to love this project.” Her mind wandered through the camera gear she’d brought with her, wondering what to use first. It all depended on what they had to photograph. And then another tidbit fell into place. “That’s why you told me to be sure to bring my camera gear, isn’t it?”

  “Yes, it is.” Jenna nodded, but she didn’t look at Tania. Instead, she kept her gaze on Kane.

  Realizing she’d been awash in her own satisfaction and joy at what she would be doing, she’d put no thought to Kane’s role in all of this. It’s not like she needed him to carry stuff. It was all small, and she’d been packing her gear for a long time.

  She frowned as she took in the hard gaze between Jenna and Kane.

  And realized she’d missed something.

  “Uhm, what’s going on?” She studied the tick on Kane’s jaw and realized instead of a blow-up, he’d gone super quiet. In her dad’s case, that meant he was seriously pissed. She winced. Kane was going to have a monster of a headache after this. Clenching his jaw, his neck was corded, and as her gaze slipped down his chest, she realized his fists were almost white at the knuckles.

  “Jenna?” No one could miss the signals in the room right now. She cleared her throat and tried again. “Maybe you could tell me what Kane and I are going to photograph?”

  Kane, his voice like silken steel, answered instead. “Go ahead, Jenna.” His voice deepened dangerously. “Tell us.”

  Shit. Tania’s gaze raced from the one so furious she couldn’t believe he was holding back to Jenna, who sat calmly, returning his stare in apparent unconcern. But Jenna was no fool; everyone knew you didn’t turn your back on a dangerous animal.

  And right now Kane was one hell of a dangerous animal.

  “Why don’t you tell her, if you think you know,” Jenna said smoothly.

  “Kane?” Tania wanted this tension to break. Even tensile strength had a breaking point.

  “It’s not what you’re going to photograph,” he snapped. “It’s who.”

  Tania didn’t understand, but at the approving curl on Jenna’s lips, she figured Kane just got the favorite student award.

  “Who am I supposed to photograph?” she asked, bewildered.

  “Me.”

  * * *

  Kane closed the door to his room with a very controlled click. He stood stock-still and let the anger ripple through him. He didn’t dare let loose or there’d be a hole in the door. He splayed his fingers wide with as much force as he could manage. When the tension finally drained, he relaxed slightly. Then he took several steps toward the bed, where he threw himself down on the cushy surface. He leaned his head back and groaned out loud.

  “What the hell am I doing here?” He could blame his brother for this damn session, but that wasn’t fair. Sure, Jerry had pushed and prodded to get Kane to sign up, and it had been a good idea initially. Sounded like just what he needed. He’d been nursing that grudge of his for far too long.

  Time to move on before he screwed up other relationships.

  He groaned again, lifting both hands and scrubbing his face. He only had an hour’s lunch break. Everyone had split immediately after their meetings with Jenna, taking off for their own silent spaces. He needed food, but he’d needed space and time to regroup more. He could do a stupid camera project with Tania.

  So what if she took a picture of him? Big deal.

  Then why was he damn near shaking? It’s as if he were stressed to the max. And if that was the case, why? He’d been fine first thing this morning. Fine since he’d arrived. He’d been disdainful as the process started. It gave him that bit of buffer in case he started to feel too involved, or they got too dangerously close to his own hurts.

  It was easier to come to something like this if he kept himself separate from the others. And of course, the therapist’s purpose was to stop him from that disconnect. He didn’t know when he’d started to feel a fine edge of anger or bitterness to put more distance between them, but it was somewhere around the time he noticed Tania flinching away from him. This morning, she’d damned near crawled into Robin’s lap.

  It made for a tough few hours when every time he shifted, he felt her response like a scared rabbit. He’d wanted to reassure her he wasn’t planning on hitting her or hitting on her. But he’d known that would have made it all worse.

  It was too bad.

  She was tiny, delicate-featured, and curvy. He hadn’t been able to stop thinking about her. Then with every breath he took, he was intimately aware of her reaction – just as she was aware of his every action.

  To have that level of awareness with someone…someone who was terrified of him…was just wrong. No… he pulled that thought. He hadn’t gotten the impression that she was terrified of him…she didn’t know him. He was a stranger to her. It was more that she was terrified of what he represented.

  His mind played with that.

  What did he represent? Maleness. Strength. Power. He’d caught her gaze on his biceps. His thighs. He studied his arms; he kept in shape, worked out, had a stocky build. No one would ever call him a toothpick, that was for sure.

  From any other woman, he’d take her glances as interest. And there could be a touch of that here, but he knew it wasn’t the main part. Given they were in therapy, chances were good she’d been beaten up by someone bigger and stronger than her and most likely someone like himself – male.

  And that made it tough to sit beside her.

  Because he didn’t have the same issues. At least not over sex. He was interested. Then again, he was male, so of course he was interested.

  He grinned, his good humor restored. It would be a cold day in Hell before any healthy male wasn’t interested in Tinkerbelle.

  But to put the two of them together for hours on end was just asking for trouble. He wasn’t sure he could stay calm and cool around her like she needed him to be, and he didn’t want to terrorize her by blowing up in front of her.

  She didn’t need that.

  He just didn’t know what she did
need. And it was none of his business. That was for Jenna to sort out. He needed to tell her privately to forget about this project.

  Feeling better, he hopped up to his feet, prepared to go down to the restaurant for a quick bite, when it hit him. He was making a big deal over nothing.

  This was a class project, just a few hours when he had to be in control. Calm. Detached. Even cop-like would work. He was a cop. He was just back finishing his degree so he could move up the ranks.

  She could take a few pictures he’d learn a little patience, and he could go home.

  Feeling better, he ran down the stairs, hoping to get a bite to eat after all.

  Surprisingly, his appetite had returned.

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  Dear reader,

  Thank you for reading the free preview of SKIN. I hope Tania and Kane’s story interests you. The full story is out! If you’d like to read about other books I’ve written, please turn the page.

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  Dale Mayer

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